Just me Erin

It is really hard to find a picture of me without someone else in it. A friend of mine in my ward took some photos of us in Stella's birthday and they turned out great! It is always good to have updated family photos! I happen to not be very good at doing it though. I really try to keep my life simple because I tend to make more out of simple things than I should. Take the picture for example.... what to wear, how to do hair/makeup. Getting everyone ready and out the door! Anyway, I over analyze alot and try not to add too much to my plate. But at the same time I miss out on many opportunities because of it.... like having recent family photos. Wow that became a rant...oh well. So about me..... me... well... I am a single mother of two incredible girls. I am a licensed Cosmetologist and worked in a salon up to having Ava and now randomly do hair out of my kitchen. I hope to get back into a salon or have on in my home. I am lucky to have the opportunity to stay home with the kids so I can enjoy these years with them (thank you Ian). I love Utah (one of the few) and would like to stay here forever. I love my family and consider them my friends as well. I am so blessed to have their love and support. it seems like I lost myself for a little while but now I am rediscovering myself and the things that are important. But I think having kids and getting a divorce does that to a person.

My little Stella Lillie

This is my little Stella Lillie... also known as Stella Bella. She is One and still seems like my baby. That is probably due to the fact that Ava was so much bigger at one than Stella and not to mention more hair. Stella is a sensitive momma's girl. She likes toys and books. She is also a good eater but prefers solid food and will only be spoon fed when really hungry. She can say Mom and Dad as well as hi and yea! She will wave to you (well herself really because she waves backwards) and clap. She is on the verge of walking and probably could but likes to be held. She will scream or cry to get her way.. which is good when you are the little sister. Stella loves Ava more than anything and will follow her around and want to do what her big sister is doing. She has a swirly belly button and long skinny feet. She loves her bathes but hates getting dressed after. Stella is currently in my room so the girls can have naps undisturbed. She is the lightest sleeper though and will wake up to the smallest noise. It is fun to wake up to her babbling and playing with the few stuffed animals in her crib in the morning. You know when she's done being in her crib when she throws everything out! She loves to throw things. She will throw a ball and go fetch it and repeat as long as she is happy or Ava steals it. It truly amazes me how different my two chillins are! I hope they are great friends in the future. oh... and she sucks her two middle fingers.

My little Ava Rose

This is my Ava! She is 3 1/2. Ava has to be one of the funniest most original little girls I know! That is what I love most and what drives me bonkers as well. I wanted to raise a decisive child so from the very beginning I let her make choices... food.. book...games...toys...ect. I usually would give her a choice between a couple things so I could still steer her in the "right direction" (my choice). But lately she has taken it to another level. She will insist on going outside to play but on learning that it is too cold she will insist I make it warmer so I can fulfill her wishes. And she makes her own rules such as "when I wake up from my nap I get a treat!". And when a healthy treat is offered she becomes upset and insists on something more sugar related. As it frustrates me I am laughing inside because this little thing know what she wants and will try her hardest to get it! She has even started the whole "you are a mean mom" but unfortunately for her I decided before having children that I would prefer to be a good mom rather than the nice mom! It worked for me! Thanks MOMS! If you have seen the movie "Coraline" you will understand when I say that Ava now asks for the "other mother" when she is in trouble or I am not compliant with her wishes. This too makes me laugh inside with a small tear but I soon recover to stand my ground. I feel that I can be a mean mom but I have high expectations for this little girl and I want her to know that I am a constant in her life and she can always count on me. A few things about Ava is that she loves the "boy" Disney movies... Toy Story and Cars. She is a bit dark and enjoys Coraline and Nightmare before Christmas! She likes to swing at the park and is an excellent eater! She will eat pretty much anything! Just tell her that it will make her healthy and strong and she is sold! She has the thickest hair and my dimple on her right cheek! I love this little girl so much and would do anything for her! She has a new word she made up recently "killa" that she tells me is like the lion kings Hakuna Matata.

The Blogging begins!

So I have thought about starting a blog several times(and probably have one floating around somewhere that I have forgot about) but seem to feel inadequate. Everyone is so witty and enertaining that I feel that my blog needs to have those elements as well. Even though I feel I have the potential of containing the necessary elements for a "fun" blog it stresses me out... and that is the last thing I need. But I find myself forgetting the silly little things that my kids say or do and it makes me feel sad inside that a year from now I will not remember. I wish I had the memory of my Father but sadly not even close! So here I am trying to put together a blog so I can keep everyone informed on the nothingness that is my life and so I can remember the highs and lows of that nothingness. Oh and be warned.... I have never been much of a grammar whiz and will not try and hide the fact that I have a hard time ending sentences so i use this.... to make up for it! Thank goodness for spell check! I hope you enjoy.